We need to talk.
I’ve tried to write a recap of the Haven conference I attended last week. and I’m really having a hard time talking about it. I had a blast. I met people that I now love. I learned a ton about blogging and DIY and photography. The business cards alone could be a post on their own. I can’t wait to tell ya all the details. And why YOU should consider dropping money you don’t have to meet your imaginary friends that live in the computer.
But not today. :) I needed to write this post first.
I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting lately. And this is a tough post to write. So I tried to talk to you and it was super serious and I yelled at my kids cause they were screwing up my video. You could see the frustration in my voice and face, and it was sickening to watch myself like that. I had no idea.
It completely went against what I was trying to say. I started deleting my videos, then found this one:
Let’s start all over.
Hi guys, that was me. I’m a former people pleaser who has been holding back on you because I am thinking you have expectations that probably don’t exist. And that sucks. And it’s not fair to either of us. I don’t share things because I want to be everything to everyone.
If you met me at the Haven conference, that was me. And that is the me I’m going to be on this blog.
Here’s what’s going to change.
1.) I am not going to wait to post something just so that it has a fancy Pinterest ready post. If I work on my garden, create a shelf, watch Lily reading a book, and do laundry all in one week, I’m going to show you.
2.) I am going to be the me that you see on my social media pages. It comes more easily there because I can click, share quickly, and carry on a conversation. (Why didn’t I start a tumblr instead?!)
3.) I’m going to be present here. I read your emails or comments and they touch me and then I don’t comment right away because I’m trying to find the perfect words and it comes across like I don’t care. These connections? They’re why I blog and I want to foster em. I do have a life, but so do you. And you take the time to comment and I will too.
This is not just a change in my blog. It’s a change in my real life and interactions. I feel good, I feel great, I feel wonderful. But movie quotes aside, I feel like I’m at a turning point in my life and that good things are gonna happen.