Last week I wasn’t feeling well and took a break from the computer. Friday, I was feeling better and almost wished I wouldn’t have logged on. Post after post, status after status about the day’s unthinkable events. The kids were in other room and I turned on the news to see a fourth grader describing the events, broke down crying, and turned it off. All I could do was pray. Get myself together and pray.
The kids helped me make a big Italian dinner, and we spent the weekend together as a family: making a gingerbread house, playing legos, lounging, watching The Santa Clause, going to church, and visiting with family we hadn’t seen in a while.
I know you you’ve been overloaded with insight from every person imaginable, I know that. I have too. But I’m having a hard time getting back to posting as usual when I feel so much swirling in my head.
We need to pray more. I need to hug more. Be a bit more present. Pay more attention. Live a good life and be a good person. Mend broken relationships. Savor our time here. Get down on the floor and play.
I can’t control the world around us, but when our Heavenly Father calls one of us to join him, I need to be ready and I want to be at peace.
Hugs to you and your family.