I’m tired, I’m not DIY-ing much, or posting much. Most of what I feel like doing involves this:
Sitting in a recliner, getting up to play with kids, take them potty, feed them, get drinks, or change diapers.
And eating, don’t forget that.
For some reason, I feel like a crochety old lady when I complain and think that you don’t want to hear about my struggles and I don’t want to be a negative Joan.
I’m 39 weeks along.
I’m really tired. I also feel like saying that makes me feel like the lady-who-thinks-she-is-the-first-person-ever-to-be-pregnant. Except I’ve been pregnant 3 other times.
I don’t think this is the most tired I’ve been. And I’m sure I was uncomfortable the last few times around. But I’m tired.
And it’s hot. So I’m staying inside. Except for Tuesdays when Lily has gymnastics and other days when we run out of milk.
I’ve lost my temper more times than I’d like and I’m kinda moody . Because hearing two kids whine and fight with each other and then yell at you while you’re having a contraction is kinda not fun. Same goes for having a 19 month old that likes to laugh at no and climb onto stuff he shouldn’t be climbing on. Please pray for me that I keep my calm. :)
Things could be worse, and knowing that brings on that dang mom guilt because I really have no reason to be crabby.
I’ve had quite a few contractions, two nights in the last week where I thought for sure it was time (last night was one of them). Both nights I realized how nervous I am about all of this. I know people think I know what I’m doing, but I don’t. This is just as scary the fourth time as it was first, maybe even more so because I know what is going to happen. There’s no turning back, it’s going to hurt, and I can’t control it all.
Is that what’s freaking me out? The fact that we can’t control it? No matter how great of a pregnancy I’ve had or prior births I’ve had, things can go wrong, every experience is different, I can’t tell whether he is going to be here today or tomorrow or in five days and just how the experience will pan out. I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT NAME WE SHOULD PICK!!! Eeks. Poor nameless kid. Maybe I should try out the random name generator, or "Seven" like Doug has suggested every other time (thanks, George Costanza).
All I know is that it has to happen. And at the end of the day, we’ll have another member of the family. And I’ll forget every little bit of uncomfortable that I was and focus on that sweet, little baby. See the love my kids have for him (hopefully. for now.).
All I can do is pray, ask you to pray for me (us), and tell you that I will return the favor. :)
Are you feeling crabby?
Here’s a post on how to be crabby and have a bad day, the right way
and here’s one on 31 Ways to Stop Having a Bad Day
Yes, I do realize I should probably read those right now. But I worry that I might try to give myself a dirty look. ;)
edited to add:
read this: We Are Each Other’s Keepers (thanks Jen for the share!) It’s really, really good.
I’m thinking about you!!
Ohh Ann Marie, you are so close! Feel crabby if you want to, be tired if you want to just try and keep remembering what’s just on the other side of the finish line!!!!
The things us girls do! I’m not pregnant and we have been hanging out at home too. Too hot for a brand new baby! I literally only leave for food. I wish I was kidding. I’m not. Funny how scary it is no matter how many times you do it. Saying lots of prayers and cannot wait to hear the good news that you and baby are safe and sound. Hang in there friend!
Aww, I so,so,soooo understand exactly where you are at. That last week is hard. It’s ok to be crabby and tired. Sit! Lay! Rollover…. Just kidding… (I know you can’t even if you wanted too! lol). What is nice about this last week is that very soon God will place the most amazing child into your arms and all that crankiness will be forgotten! Hugs to you my sweet friend! XOXO ~ KIM
I will be praying for you. Thanks for taking to us! I think you are doing such a great job at balancing it all. Your kids have a great mom, the BEST mom for them. Breathe. Seriously, stop and take a deep breath. God loves you. Your babies love you. No. Matter. What. :)
Hang in there my friend. I have no idea what it’s like so I can’t really sympathize with you, but I can pray for you. :)
I’m a week behind you and totally feel where you are coming from. Good luck! I’m excited for you and your family :)
Ahh, Negative Joan – still cracking up. And SEVEN! I vote for SEVEN! You have to scream it every time. Thinking of ya’ll. xoxo
I don’t blame you a hit, at this stage of the game! I think that’s about all you SHOULD be doing. It’ll be ‘all good’ very soon. I’ll pray for a safe & smooth delivery, and before you know it, you’ll be in ‘swoon-mode’. Hang in there, Girl!
You deserve to sit and rest a bit! You’ve been so busy working on the house. If you need any name suggestions, I would be more than happy to share some that have made the rounds at our house: Pinky, Tom Sawyer, Grover, Howie, Ralph. Really, take any one you want. ;)
You’re awesome, girl. Just lounge and be cranky if you need to be. I love your candid posts. I miss you and I wish I could come chat your ear off while you lounge!!! I’m all for the “Seven” suggestion. ;)
You’ll do fantastic, just like you always do! It’s always scary in a way no matter how many you have… and it will be over before you know it. I’m praying for you ((hugs))
Oh you are so Sweet!! I can say that this is SO totally normal. We just had our 6th baby 6mths ago and you would of thought that I was having our first. I had the same nerves, I was having contractions Weeks out and thought for sure I was going to go early. I had her a day late :) I can’t wait to see this precious little face on your IG feed.
I will be praying for you SWEET friend!
xoxo
I know excactly how you feel. I’m currently 37 weeks with baby girl #3. The kids totally get the best of me more than I like to admit these days, at 3 years and 20 months one of them is constantly doing something that they shouldn’t. I think I’m the most afraid of having 3 kids ages 3 and under – what were we thinking?! I’m envious that you are further along than me, any day now you get to meet your new little bundle of joy. Congrats!
great post AM, hang in there! : ) Did you have morning sickness with each pregnancy? Praying for you!!!!!!!
You don’t have much longer now! I will be praying for you and your baby for a good delivery and a healthy baby. I have been pregnant 3 times and with my 3rd I was more nervous than with my 1st. Each pregnancy is harder on your body and it takes more out of you.
Can I love and hate this post all at the same time?? I am SO CRANKY it’s ridiculous. Geez!! I just neeed this baby in my arms noowww!! I’m geting contractions too, and I keep thinking, “This is it!” and then they go away. So frustrating!!!! Hang in there – we’re getting close!!!
Good luck! And don’t feel guilty for feeling crabby. You have a right to feel that way right about now! Hope all goes well and can’t wait to hear what name you pick and see pics of the little guy. :) Praying for a quick and easy delivery!
I don’t care how many kids/pregnancies you’ve had…..being prego in the summer and thus delivering in the middle of August….13th of 2002 to be exact…..I think you kind of sort of should be given an extra pregnant-lady-complaining-pass….because I can all too vividly recall those long, hot, hazy days of summer prego like it was yesterday. You find and do whatever keeps you calm, cool and relaxed and the rest will work itself out. Best wishes and regards!!!!