Sometimes I feel crabby. Sometimes I don't want to smile. Sometimes I don't want to talk to little people or get 8 different snacks in a day or stop what I'm doing over and over again to take someone potty (as he grabs my hand away from the keyboard so I can take him potty).
And then I feel guilty about it. Super guilty. I take a shower and drink some coffee and throw in a load of laundry. I start thinking about all the little sayings that I've pinned on how to be proactive and powerful and do something. I look on my phone and see all of the positive and beautiful but oh-so-wonderfully-regular snaps my friends have taken of their day and smile. But I have nothing to share. Do you want to see my breakfast? Meh. My 25 week pregnant without makeup? Meh. My not-quite messy, but very much played in family room? Meh. So I set down my phone.
I look at my house and think of a project I can work on, but then am reminded that I never painted the other three walls of the hallway, or that my room is an ongoing work in progress. I realize that I should clean off my dressers. And then I realize I need to fold the three loads in there. And then I see my gorgeous headboard and think about how I never wrote a post or tutorial on it. And that I should probably get on that. Then I remember that I've promised a few people a post on a certain clipboard wall and haven't done it. Same goes for the post I meant to do on painting our white trim.
Then, I don't want to work on my room anymore and I head out of the room, dejected. Then the laundry doesn't get folded. Again.
I think about how I want to portray my life to all of you in a positive light, that no one wants to listen to me crabbing. I don't want to be a negative nancy. I don't like reading posts from super negative people and I don't like complaining. Then I feel bad about talking about it when I read how sweet you all are when you tell me you hope my day gets better. I don't want to be one of those bloggers that casts their family in a negative light. But seriously, you have to go potty again!? I shouldn't be bringing you down when I could be lifting you up. So I don't post a picture on instagram. Or start up a conversation on Facebook. Maybe I don't want to talk to anyone after all.
I want to get out of the house so I think about going to Target because I need new shoes. But then I realize that I don't want to feel guilty for stopping at Starbucks or for spending $100 more on other crap. Maybe I'll head to my mom's house, but then again it is 11 and I still have to get everyone ready to leave the house for that 1 hour trip. Diaper changes, clean clothes, brushed hair, bags packed, and I should probably change out of these yoga pants. Sigh. Maybe I don't want to go anywhere.
Then comes more guilt. Man, I really should write a post today. I have the pictures taken and ready to go so I start writing and stop a few more times to get snacks, lunch, and take people potty. I'm just not in it anymore. But I really should write a post! But then again I don't want my kids to have to watch a movie. More guilt.
And here we are. And what did all of that get me?
I felt crappy about myself, didn't get anything done, and now am super dejected and don't want to do anything. And now you're all bummed out from reading about it. More guilt. Cue the Debbie Downer theme song!
It's okay to be crabby and not be on your A game.
At least I say so. 🙂 I hate the idea of hiding behind a smile when you just don't feel like it. Not every day has to be a great one.
But not every bad day has to be miserable like the one up there that left me feeling like crap. I hit all of the negative nails on the head, that's how to NOT have a bad day.
Here's how to have a bad day the right way:
Read this list on 31 Ways to Stop Having a Bad Day. I've done six things and could easily do six more. Surprisingly, it helped. I thought I wanted to be crabby, but I forgot how good that post was. Darn that list! *shakes fist*
Turn off the computer, snuggle up, and watch Mr. Rogers Neighborhood on Hulu. Drink some coffee, but also have a bunch of water. Don't compare yourself to others. Don't get down on yourself. Don't feel bad that you're not tackling your massive amount of emails or finishing off the few chores that need to be done. Don't feel bad that you're not in the best of moods, not every day has to be an amazing one! Instead of yelling or losing your temper, count to five and calm down. When little people ask you for something it is because they need you, not because they want to annoy you or take you away from work.
Oh hey, I told you to turn off the computer so I'm going to do that too.
If you were curious, I've gotten green beans, apples, oranges, crackers, a donut, water, milk, another cup of milk, and taken Ben potty 4 times since starting this post. And we have hot dogs on the stove cooking. But don't worry, they're organic. Don't need that guilt creeping up on me again...
And I promise you'll get those posts someday, just not today. 🙂
Are you having a bad day?
Do you feel bad admitting it or letting yourself have a bad day?